Feeling it

A post or so back, I talked about feeling it all the way down. And I just had a thought about that - an afterthought, aftershock, post script, whatever…

When I am submitting and that moment of surrender comes, I tend to feel it as a letting go, a relaxing, like heavy gates are swinging open in slow motion within me.

And that feeling usually originates as a tingling in the back of my neck that moves down my shoulders and radiates in expansive waves that wash down into into my chest and diaphragm. This is usually when the calm settles in and I being to float.

Also, when I start to feel the letting go of surrender, I want to begin exhaling in long slow beautiful waves. Really long, sighing, moaning exhalations feel very very good, and I feel dreamy, dissolved… at one with the world.

When I’m dominating and that surge of almost savage focus comes, I tend to feel it as a very fast expansion, as if some superheated energy has flash-flooded into a container that can barely hold it.

And this feeling usually originates in my solar plexus or my belly, and then radiates upward very fast into my chest and neck. I sometimes get dizzy at this point, and my eyes feel like they’re snapping into some sort of super vision mode, like I can suddenly see at both a microscopic level as well as into outerspace (I know, that sounds goofy, but there it is).

And when that flood of power begins to overtake me, I have the feeling that I want to suck in as much air as I can - deep, gluttonous inhalations. I think my chest actually physically expands at this point and inhaling feels so fucking powerfully good - like I’m suddenly more alive than alive.

So… this is interesting. Especially from the standpoint of chakras and energy movement. In my body, it seems that dominance goes up on the inhale, surrender goes down on the exhale, and either way, it all ends up swirling around at the heart.

Wow… I honestly never looked at my own responses like this before, contrasted in this way. The complementarity of this is really cool to me - up/down, in/out, etc.

Also interesting is that these upper body feelings are generally my first entrance into the “spaces” of either dominance or submission, and only later, after it’s spent some time swirling around in my heart center, does the energy move into the lower, sexual chakras - which triggers a whole other dimension of… swirling.

Hmm… Feeling it all the way down. Indeed.